It’s the best time of the day.
Where stillness and dew on the grass have yet to be broken.
Where the light is soft and floats in
This moment, this space, is all mine.
And I inhale it selfishly.
Because soon the world will wake up.
The lights will turn on, the cars will rev their engines.
The tranquility will be broken.
My worries will weigh down on me.
But for now I savour this moment.
This moment gives me room to breathe.
Rest for a weary soul and hope for a heavy heart.
In the stillness I find peace.
In the quiet I find my strength.
Most mornings I jolt awake as my alarm blares loudly from across the room. I fumble around to find my glasses case and the light switch and then I stumble to my feet. I go through the motions of getting dressed, making breakfast, pouring that absolutely essential cup of coffee and gathering the things I require for the day.
It usually feels as though I am scrambling to fit it all in. My head is spinning trying to remember all the dates, appointments and events. Before I have even stepped out the front door, my feet are weary and my soul is drained.
I feel like there is never enough. I feel like I am not enough. Like I’m spread too thin. Scraped out like the end of a peanut butter jar. Barely managing to reach the ends.
I suppose it’s because scarcity is the mindset running rampant in our modern lives. Time, money, and resources are limited so we have to be the best to secure it all. We have to outsmart everyone else or we will miss out.
We need to be smartest to get the promotion. We need to be prettiest to get the guy. We need to be the busiest to prove we can do it all.
We live in this war against ourselves because we are never enough.
This scarcity anguish runs deep in our veins. It’s venom that corrupts all peace, pleasure and purpose. It’s what makes us jealous when we see others succeed because if they get a bigger slice of the pie, it means our piece is smaller.
It’s difficult for us to share because we’re so afraid we’ll run out. We only have enough energy to listen to one friend’s struggles. We only have enough time to feed our own family. We only have enough patience to make it to our mailbox in the evening.
If we give to this person then another is just gonna have to miss out…that’s how it works. There just isn’t enough. We just aren’t enough.
But what if we are wrong?
What if there is another way?
What if we don’t need to try harder or do more… what if there is enough?
It seems that so many of us are forgetting the simple truth that Jesus came so that we could have life, and have it in all its fullness.
Jesus came so that we could live in abundance…not scarcity.
That means that there is enough for you, for me, for your family, your neighbours and every other human being on this planet.
Scarcity puts a high price on commodities. Abundance breaks down barriers of inequality.
Scarcity turns us inward. Abundance sends us outward.
Scarcity creates fear and distrust. Abundance produces community and love.
When we live from a place of abundance, it changes everything. If we aren’t lacking…we can give everything. We have nothing to lose and so much to gain.
When we understand that it is God’s grace alone that enables us to live we are free. It takes the pressure to perform away from us. We no longer need to prove ourselves. We can just be.
We are no longer in competition…we are on the same team. We cheer one another on and build each other up. We give and give and give and still we never run out.
I don’t want to spend any more of my mornings rushing around with this sense of dread and inadequacy. I want to live in this space of abundance.
Where I can slow down long enough to appreciate the gentle light of the morning. Where I can pause at traffic lights without ranting about how much time I’m wasting. Where I can sit face to face with someone and listen when they are talking to me.
We can rest. We can stop fighting one another. We can share what we have with the assurance that there will always be more.
When we wake in the morning we can rise and give thanks because there is enough time in this day and we are already enough.
This is amazing grace. This is the fullness of the gospel. This is the good news that we have the privilege of sharing.
You and me, our yokes are easy and our burdens are light. We are walking under the wings of grace daily and we know this is the way it is supposed to be. When the world sees us, let them be awestruck by our patience in affliction, our willingness to serve, and our generosity of spirit.
We aren’t like the rest of the crowd hooting out of impatience, shoving to get to the front of the line or taking the last piece of cake greedily for ourselves.
We are the fragrance of grace, the essence of abundance. The reminder for this weary world that there is enough.
And when we fall short ourselves…we can rest assured that His unfailing grace will be sufficient for us too.